Am I just a magnet for sexual advances on the part of my male friends? Is there just something about me that screams Use me to have a good, sensual time because, don't worry, I'm not looking for any actual commitment or feelings to back up that hand you just placed there? Should I just feel blessed that I'm even getting this kind of attention at ( Read more... )

Tiny says:
Disappointed in what?
Tiny says:
In that person?
Tiny says:
Or yourself for being so vulnerable in the first place?
Ashi says:
both
Tiny says:
/nod
Tiny says:
Well, there is nothing you can do about being " vulnerable"
Tiny says:
I'll tell you that with first hand knowledge.
Tiny says:
In living with someone who you are not out of love with.
Tiny says:
: ( Read more... )

last night I had a dream that I was falling. only I had chosen to, because I had jumped. on the way down, I was petrified. I saw the stone ledge coming closer and closer... but I landed, and I was praised, and I went on with my life, a bit more prouder than before. I had regretted jumping, but in the end I felt pretty damn sly.

my book says, "if we ( Read more... )

So.

"Did you like that?"
"Yes I... I'm just confused by it. Really confused."
"Me too."

I got my first kiss.

"Didn't you know you'd be my first?"
"I knew. But now I feel bad. I don't want to do things that make you believe I have feelings that aren't really there."
"Then you shouldn't kiss me."
"I'm sorry."

He did it again later anyway.

" ( Read more... )

He's started saying "I love you" when we hang up. It's better. I still don't know what I am to him, but this is progress. It doesn't mean he's going to break up with his girlfriend. But it makes the fact that he has a girlfriend matter to me less ( Read more... )

He was hurting so bad tonight that I cried for him. That's how I know.. I'm falling too hard. This isn't okay ( Read more... )

Hey, guys.

Explain this to me, because apparently I don't get it.

My mom's now mad at me and/or has her feelings hurt because I told her that if I were to have sex, I wouldn't want to recount it to her and fangirl about it.

(By the way, this was spurred from:

Mom: Ya know if Jordi ever wanted to sleep over on the couch, that's cool. I ( Read more... )

I hadn't really noticed it until tonight, but I think slowly my self-esteem is lowering more and more after each night I talk to Jordi on the phone ( Read more... )

Two by two and side by side
Love's gonna find you yes it is
You just can't hide
You'll hear it call
Your heart will fall
Then love will fly
It's gonna soar
I don't care for any casanova thing
All I can say is
Love stinksI want to be in love and yet every time I try, it all goes to shit. for a time I just thought, 'well, quit tryin so hard.' but you ( Read more... )

The problem with my life was that I had never viewed myself as the main character of it. Or, when I attempted to make it feel like I was the main character, it backfired ( Read more... )